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At this point of time, I believe everyone is looking forward to christmas, busy looking for gifts and stuff. While I'm still stuck. I've got no idea what I should do. I bet, this year's christmas is gonna be boring for me. Who wanna exchange christmas present with me? Up till now, I still got no plans at all. Wondering what should I do during christmas? Just movie and dinner or? No gifts no nothing. Boring....

A long long journey..

Been feeling very tired these days due to insufficient of sleep. Have been going out till late night almost single every and the next morning, I got to drag myself out of bed and get to work. Wednesday was Jiamin's bbq at east coast park. I have lots of fun with the flowers and TB mates. It was definitely an awesome gathering. Yesterday night was out with ken's family. It is somehow celebrating ken's birthday, as all of us were busy and got no time to celebrate on the actual day. We dined in at 313's Marche. The queue was damn damn long I swear, whereas the food is like 7/10? Well, afterall at least we get to dined in and tried the food there. I must say, the environment is quite unique though. Before I forget, congrats to carmen! She've got her car license woo. Hope you see this dear. Despite all these that I've listed down, my mind is still surrounded by problems. As I always mentioned in my post, problems never fail knocking on my door sigh. Seriously, I am sick and tired of work. I've come to a decision that I will quit at the end of this month. Hopefully I have made the right decision. For all these months, I've become their topic of giossip. I don't wish to talk much about work but seriously, I have limit and I'm bursting.. I have never been happy ever since I started this work. This has been the most stressing work that I've ever done and I've came to realised that, it was never good to depend on others. Never. For all these days, my mind is full of negative thoughts. I'm glad its ending soon.. but what should I do after I've quit my job? Should I find a new job while waiting for my results to release or should I relax myself first? I still got a lot more to blog but I know you guys is bored by my emo entires sorry, lovelies.

On a lighter note, tomorrow is sunday yay. Meaning, I've got no work :> :> :>

xoxo,

Jass.

Hi world. I shall breifly update about what I'm doing recently other than work :> Yesterday accompanied ken to his grandma house as it was her birthday. As usual, I saw all his relatives and the little ones. Spent last week's weekend fruitfully with ken. It was his sis, kelly's wedding and I stayed over. Slept at 2am and woke up at approximate 5am. I was tired but nonetheless, I still enjoyed myself. It was awesome I must say, could see that everyone were enjoying ourselves. It was sucha joyous occasion and thank you for putting me in VIP table. On top of that, I have been going for my dental appointment for three continuous weeks and each time I go, I have to pay hundred over dollars :-(

Phew, its ken's birthday tomorrow but I need to work. Jiamin's bbq next wednesday~ Shall stop here, I'm off to have my nap now. Have a nice day, everyone.

xoxo,
Jass.

Insufficient sleep.


Dead tired right now, but I shall just do a short post before turning in. Many things happened recently and I have no idea where I should start blogging about. I totally have no time to update my blog, shopping, dating.. bascially everything. I'm forever so busy. I'm feeling tired every single day. Am having a hard time waking up every particular day. I've got to drag myself to work. Work occupied all my time I guess. My schedule is like so pack. I'm always rushing like a mad girl these days. I'm tired. I can't even remember when is the last time I slept till 11 or 12pm? Well, most probably I will work till the end of December and I'm free. I'm gonna enjoy. I need a break, I need to sleep, I need to meet my girlfriends, I need to shop and I need money. Ok I seriously need to sleep now, I'm feeling extremly tired. Shall update a proper post some other day. Stay tuned :>

xoxo,
Jass.

Crying while blogging right now. I feel so down, I really am. I have enough, I seriously have enough. Enough is enough. I thought, I thought I'm starting to get used to my work right now but I guess I was wrong. I'm totally wrong. Those complains, nonsense and everything, I have enough. Have been tolerating for at least two months. I know, I'm always careless in my work. I admitted, I did have alot of careless mistake in the past but I guess I'm better right now though I still have a few careless mistake in my work. Nobody is perfect isn't it. I have already tried my best. Why can't anyone just appreciate my effort? Instead of encouraging or motivate me, they just add in more and more salt into my wound letting the whole world to know how careless I am, basically all my weakness. Is that what it suppose to be? Did anyone ask me whether I'm happy working there? No. Everyone just assume that, that place is the best for me. Getting scolded from others is alright but getting scolded from your loved ones is hurtful. Does they know how hurt I am? I'm hurt. I feel nothing in this home. I'm a transparent one. This isn't a home at all. I'm just like a slave living in this house with no love at all. I get no love but hurt. Just because I don't say anything, doesn't mean I'm not a human. There's just too many words left unspoken. People scolded me when I told them how I felt, but the fact is that they actually doesn't know exactly how I feel. Forget it, just let me be alone. I wondered, if someday I died, will anyone get upset?

I literally can't take it anymore this time. I'm hurt. I've got no more strength to go on anymore.

I get very irritated this few days. Totally have no idea why. Is it because of my period or? I admitted that's an excuse but I wonder why I get pissed off easily. I don't wish to be like this having a bad mood every day. My home is so noisy, that's also one of the reason why I choose not to stay at home. Perhaps I just need a space, I need sometime to be alone. I need some peace. I wish my baby to stay with me. Everything is just screwed up. Life's sucha bitch. Nobody ever tolerate you when you make one tiny little mistake. People are just so selfish, so realistic. I tolerate, endure and persevere but how long can I hold? I tried to think positive all the times but all those negative thoughts of mine just bring me down down down. Perhaps one day I lost my memory, I'll be happier. Is that what I want?

Dental & Pedicure appointment tomorrow. I'm nervous, I'm scared.

Weak & Sensitive.

Hie, I'm still the same. Working all day long. Nothing much interesting happen in my life except that, yesterday was my aunt's office opening and I've got to admit that she really did received alot of flowers. There were many many nice ones. Out of a sudden, I feel like going on a holiday trip or something. I need a break. I need to relax myself. I'm tired of everything. Been stressing for this and that lately :( After two months, I'm finally starting to get used to my work but it doesn't mean that I like my work grr. I need money money money.

Ciaos, I'm busy like a BEE. Two appoinment this coming thursday - Pedicure and ? Looking forward to this sunday. It's kenneth sis, - kelly's big dayyyyyyy ;>

xoxo,
Jass.