LIFE

2011-06-19T15:30:00.000+08:00

No longer be blogging here.

New blog: http://www.jaslynkimberly.blogspot.com/

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-06-03T15:22:00.000+08:00

I don't know what exactly went wrong but I know its always my faults. I'm so sick and tired of everything. everything. I'm so sick of what I'm feeling right now. Somehow, I wish I have the ability not to care too much and ignore everything that affects me, but I know that's totally impossible. I just need someone to talk about it. Who is that someone? Honestly, I feel really alone most of the time. Common test is here again. Time to mug hard for the last semester. Have a good day, everyone. Bye.

2011-05-25T22:55:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of getting my hopes high up and being disappointed again.

"Sometimes, I keep my feelings to myself because its so hard for someone else to understand"

Finally able to spend some quality time with cher and sob at bugis last weekend.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-05-22T23:01:00.001+08:00

#Random post

Audrey Hepburn top, love it.

Eyelashes bought from mum from taiwan!

High forehead? :S

Trying out lipstick with lipgross hehe.

Ken cycled me to sbw to get pizza~

Sweet and spicy chicken drumlets!

School tomorrow. Friggin' bored... ciaos~

xoxo,

Jass.

2011-05-17T14:09:00.000+08:00

Decided to dine in at coffee club last saturday when I wasn't working. I've never really get to try the food there even though I'm a part time staff there. Bought ken along and surprisingly, the food there isn't nice at all. The food portion was small and price was overrated. Or prolly we choose the wrong main course. Sigh, I totally regret dining there... rahhhh. We ended up leaving the restaurant not more than thirty minutes. Went over to scape for flea again. I know right, I'm sucha boring person. Always going for flea, but I guess I made the right choice by heading there this time. Managed to bought a DKNY top for $25 omgggg what a steal! At least that cheered me up heee. This week, I won't be working woooo. Bahhhhh, lika finally. This is actually the first week that, I decided not to work ever since school reopen. Gonna have some rest and chiong for projects. So many things undone T.T

Happy Vesak Day! ^^

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-05-14T14:59:00.000+08:00

Head to work yesterday after school. Guess I've made a wrong choice by working every friday after school till midnight. I'm torturing myself. Body aching all over now. No social life at all. I need some time, I need a break from all these. School projects are driving me crazy and work are making me exhausted. I need a breather. "That feeling when you go to bed knowing "that the next day you're going to have to wake up and face the reality again"

Town with cher darling & sob on last public holiday.

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-04-30T17:42:00.002+08:00

Caught the source code with ken at great world city last weekend.
Dine in at Holland village N.Y.D.C cafe.
The food and ambience was great.
Went for my dental appt on thursday.
Due to the rubber band and tightening, I'm in pain now.
I feel like taking off my braces.
Right now, at this moment, cause the pain is silently killing me.
I can't eat or chew anything. Feel as though my teeth is dropping any time.
Gonna work tomorrow.
Kthxbye.
T.T

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-04-24T14:37:00.001+08:00

Headed out with the girls, cher and dems to town last tues cause we don't have school. Caught the Justin's Bieber movie, Never say never with them. Awesome shit. It was really an inspirational yet touching movie and I'm currently having a 'bieber fever' right now. Ah I can't believe I just typed that but jb's too kute and now I finally understood why so many girls are crazy over him. I missed the jb's concert in singapore sigh. Y'know what, work has officially took away my social life. I was supposed to work today but I'm sick. My throat is getting worst. I guess I probably don't have enough rest or sleep.

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-04-21T09:37:00.000+08:00

School has started for a week but apparently, I'm still not used to waking at such early timing. My whole body clock is screwed. I feel so lethargic each morning I got up and had to drag myself outta bed reluctantly. I miss holidays. I miss turning in late night and woke up late the next day. I miss everything.... sigh, I know my blog is rotting already. Sometimes, I wished I could have been more hardworking, putting more effort in blogging and uploading peektures more often, but my laziness overtook me. ok that's only part of the reason but the main reason is that, I'm recently busy with a lot of things. Didn't even have a proper day to rest at home and I'm working during the weekends too. Arghhhh can I have 48 hours a day instead? Projs, work and school is driving me crazy. I need a break.ok enough of my whiny post.

Was out with ken on one of the sat. Went to scape for flea, roam around town and had mushroom pot for dinner. Love simple dates like this

I'm heading to work after school again. Argh, its gonna be a long day.

Have a great weekend everyone!

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-04-09T12:51:00.000+08:00

Head to scape for flea during one of my off day. Pretty much satisfied what I got on flea but still, its not enough. Feel as though during this holidays, I didn't shop much, didn't enjoy much and didn't go for pedicure which I've been wanting to do for so long. I just don't have so much time for all this and surprisingly, school's starting next week. How fast, I don't know if I should be happy or sad seriously. How I wish holidays can be extended. Not being greedy, just one week will do but that's truly impossible. Today's my last day to enjoy, work tomorrow, school on monday and we're officially year two now.

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-03-31T15:11:00.001+08:00

So.. I've been working for the past one week till I got my off day which is today. Finally a day for me to rest. Mentioned it in my previous blog post that I'll get to know my results on the 31st, which is also today. Somehow, I feel so reluctant to know my results cause I fear that, I might be upset or disappointed again. This time round, I woke up with a heavy heart, mentally prepared. Not pinning too much hope or expecting too much even though I myself know that, this is the first time that I'm mugging so hard. Not trying to exaggerate or something but its really true. All those late nights mugging in school with friends every single days including weekends, dragged myself up early in the morning to do revision again before the test and everything. Didn't on lappy at all, was really in study mode. ok enough of my crap, I merely just hope that my gpa would increase by either 0.1 or 0.2 but ended up, I've got more than what I've expected. For the very first time, I'm not feeling sad or disappointed upon viewing my results. For the very first time I'm getting two grade A, for the very first time I'm feeling so pleased, satisfied and contended with my results. This is best results that I've attained so far, though there's still one grade c and I know there's still room for improvement. All my hard work, effort and everything has paid off. Its all worth it. This definitely motivate and push me to study even harder for the next sem. I can't express out entirely how I'm feeling at this moment. I just feel so thankful and grateful. Especially the few girls that I've been mugging with, cher darling, ida and li jun babe. Hopefully for the next sem, I'll achieved even better results.

2011-03-31T14:56:00.000+08:00

Job interview with the girls.

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-03-31T14:19:00.001+08:00

Overdue post.

Just a short brief about my 19th birthday. As you guys know, my birthday falls exactly the same date on one of my exam module. Didn't expect anything this year cause all I know was to mug hard for exam, get a good gpa and give a damn about anything else. Just when I thought I won't be getting any surprise this year, ken came to my doorstep and surprise me at 12am. I was super shocked and touched at the same time, thinking that I won't be able to experience the same thing as last year. After blowing the candles and all, I saw a timberland plastic bag, inside was a charles and keith box so I thought it was a pair of shoes or heels, wanted to open the present asap but he told me to do so only when I'm home. I opened, saw the present wrapped with layers of newspaper. It took me quite awhile to open and its actually a.......... Ipod touch. He knew that all along I've been wanting to get it. Thank you so much, love.

The next day, nat, cher and lijun came to my house and when I just finished bathing, still wrapping my hair with the towel. Super un glam moment. They surprise me with a birthday cake and presents. I was super touched. In my mind, I was thinking how on earth did they know my exalt address and all, so ken was the one who gave it to them.

Final exam ended the next day and the clique celebrated it for me again. Again, I was literally shocked, touched and speechless. Didn't expect all this coming at all. Despite that my birthday falls on the exam dates, I had the the best birthday ever.

Thank you all for making my last teen year so awesome. Thank you so sooo much. Each and everyone placed a important role in my heart ♥♥♥

xoxo,
Jass

2011-03-23T13:15:00.000+08:00

Got myself a job at town's coffee club. Today's gonna be my first day. Feeling a little excited and... weird. Guess I won't be updating much as I'll probably be working my ass off during this few weeks since school is starting in two weeks time. Heard that my results will be released on the 31st march. I'm so worried. Just can't stop thinking bout' it. Take care everybody.

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-03-23T13:11:00.001+08:00

The girls and I planned a surprise birthday party for cher's 18 birthday at syazie's crib last friday. It was a success. Dems went to bring her for movie in the morning and managed to trick her to syazie's crib after which. We were all hiding behind some walls and when she came in, we sang b'day song with cabbage and a candle. Seriously it looks so stupid and funny. Who would replace birthday cake using some cabbage... hmmmz. Of cos not, we were just fooling around with the cabbage. We then sang her b'day song for the second time. This time round, with a real birthday cake and we had mee goreng cooked by nan, tom yam soup by syazie's dad and etc. Watch mantra together, cam whored and homeeeee.

Hope you like this small b'day celebration that we've planned for you. Love you always darling cher yeung.

xoxo,

Jass.

2011-03-19T14:47:00.001+08:00

Sentosa trip with the girls on tuesday. Been wanting to go for so long but its either we don't have the time to do so or the weather is not good. After much procrastinating, we finally went. Yeap, its just the three of us. Cher jass and nat. Simple yet fun but a pity that there weren't so much sun therefore we aren't tanned at all. Definitely more of these outings to come~

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-03-16T19:04:00.001+08:00

Last saturday was well spent with ken. Roam around NEX and bought nothing. Spent our money all on food hahaaa. We're such big eater. Food is heaven! Haha well tell me, who don't love food? oh emm geez. Shall leave you guys the pictures. I'm just too lazy to type and eventually, it has became a habit for me :p

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-03-15T21:21:00.001+08:00

Met cher and huimin last sunday. Love random meetups like this.
Bought koi, roam around a.m.k.
Randomly went into one of the shop and got huimin belated birthday present.
Bought some finger food and head to some void deck place and started cam whoring.
oh wellz, have been spending a lot recently, especially for friends' birthday pressie.
Feel damn damn broke now. Need to work. Need a part time job.

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-03-12T15:00:00.002+08:00

Finally, exam's over. I've been waiting for this. I've been mugging really really hard for my exam this time round, no kidding. I guess, this is the first time that I'm mugging so hard. Staying back in school till late night almost everyday. Everyday I only slept for few hours and the next day, no matter how tired I am, I gotta drag myself to school again. Its been sooo tiring. I'm glad that everything's over.. now I finally have the time to do my own things. Quality time with darlingirls, picnic, shopping, party till late night and etc. Nonetheless, I still hope that my efforts will bring back good results, really hoping for a good grades this time. Grrrrrr I have no idea why but I'm so worried now ):

okbye, gonna blog again soon!

xoxo,

Jass.

2011-03-12T14:59:00.000+08:00

One of the sundays at xinwang. Simply love the food there. Not saying its the best but the service at sbw, food portion is big and price is reasonable :)

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-02-19T15:52:00.000+08:00

All my presentations, role play and assignments are done

its over! I am free from projects for the time being

i can finally concentrate on my upcoming exams

didn't on my lappy for straight two days

that's so not jass. Self-discipline

there's flea today and tomorrow

i'm so so soo tempted to go, but then again,

i told myself that I really got to buck up for this sem

and not think of any other things till exam's over

therefore i spent most of my time studying now

but at times, i just can't focus

and i start dreaming again

and my mind start to think of something else

i rlly can't afford to get another grade c for my modules
gonna aim good grades for all the modules

and hopefully i'll able to achieve it this sem

urgh, i'm feeling so stresssssssss now

can somebody pls calm me down and motivate me

my hair's dropping and white hair's coming out soon

need a stress ball

need to exercise and play some sports to de-stress

ahaha ok i sound so desperate or smtg

bai, have a great weekend everyone

Jass.

2011-02-15T21:52:00.001+08:00

Wasssup, hi everyone. Just a short post, filled with peektures. Weekends was well-spent with ken last week. We celebrated advance v'day, a very simple date. Only managed to catch a movie and dine in at white dog cafe then head home after which. Well, v'day is actually just like any other usual day. What matters most is that, you're still here with me, spending out third year together. I've so much to say but I've no idea where I should begin with. I just wanna say, I'm too grateful and thankful to have you in my life. Though at times, we do have quarrels just like any other couple but at the end of the day, we know we still love/need each other. Thank you for always being here for me when I need you the most. Thank you for always being so understanding. Thank you for making me so special. Thank you for your love, and every little thing that you've done for me. This is just the beginning, and there's still a long long journey to go. We will be able to go through this together ♥

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-02-10T22:01:00.001+08:00

Its thursday. School dismissed early today. Head to the adelphi together with k, to collect my bro's repaired laptop. And I bought my cam along, decided to camwhore. Then I realized my hair was too straight and my fringe turn into a centre parting. Too ugly to even camwhore now. Final exams coming in three weeks time. I'm getting a little nervous and scared as well. I think it has been quite a hectic week for me. I've been busy with presentations, mock test and so many more. I've never been this busy when I was year 1, things changes and the stress level increases gradually. I must really make full use of this few weeks to study hard and achieve good results. I do not want to see myself disappoint again when I got my results. Really got to pull up my gpa. So I guess I won't be blogging for awhile. Or maybe I will just upload some pictures.

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-02-07T22:06:00.001+08:00

My hair is so dry, so damaged and I can't stand it any further so I decided to do something about it. I went to do some treatment plus rebond. Did it few weeks ago and cut a few inches away too. Recently my blog entry are quite wordy cause I haven't been taking any pictures as I kept forgetting to bring my cam out urgh, I've got no mood to blog too :'(

Once you've been hurt too many times, it's hard to have hope for anything anymore.

xoxo,

Jass.

2011-01-28T22:24:00.001+08:00

Fucking spoiled my mood seriously. What did I fucking do to offend you? I'm your bloody sister. Did you ever show some respect for me? If you want me to respect you then fucking show me some respect. What did I do to deserve this kinda shit from you? I thought you have became a little mature but fuck, no. Please la, change your fucking attitude. Not for me, not for everyone but its for your own good. You seriously spoiled my mood for everything, everything. This is not the first time, not the second time, its countless. I'm taking it too much therefore, I'm bursting this time. I'm so weak. I can't believe I just cried for nothing, cried for you. The fact that I cried is because you still meant some thing to me. The more I'm typing, the more I feel like crying. I can't be soft hearted anymore. People are taking it for granted and taking advantage of me. Yes, I can't deny the fact that I am sensitive but you have no idea how hurtful your words can be. You have no idea how much it fucking hurts. You have no idea how much these words affect me. I'm not asking for too much, I just need some basic respect from you but you don't even have that. I'm so disappointed. I really am. I don't know what to say any more. Loss of words. Speechless. I don't want to hate you but the way you behave, your actions and your attitude, make me hate you. I guess I'm certainly not asking for too much, is it hard to give?

2011-01-25T21:33:00.002+08:00

My thoughts are hard to write out, or even share that matter. In my head, it all makes sense, but in my mouth, words refuse to come form. It's very frustrating, and that is why I will always just smile. I'm sorry that when I sad that I will smile. It's a whole lot easier than explaining everything or anything at all.

One of the best moments in life is when you feel sad, but you've got someone who will effortlessly put a smile on your face.

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-01-10T20:44:00.000+08:00

Haiiii hello. Last friday was another day back in school to finish up projs, saturday to attend bro's pop with family followed by last two days of work at NEX and I'm back to school today~ Totally can't believe my three weeks of holidays just like pass like this.. sigh. School sucks, seriously. Moreover, exams falls on my birthday this year wth and I'm having exams for four days straight tskkkk. How crap can that be and I'm having exam this friday again. I'm so sick and tired of it. I just wanna get out of this school as soon as possible and get my ass to poly but there's still a year more. Urghh endure.. I'm still enduringgggggggg.

Bro's popppppp :D

xoxo,

Jass.

For you my dear!!!

2011-01-05T22:06:00.003+08:00

Hi Baby! Surprise :)

Happy 2years6months2days Anniversary :) So happy to be with you and today you gave me a surprise by coming to wait for me outside my school. You went to clementi alone just to buy KOI and waited 1hour for me. Sorry to make you wait :( Next time it will be my turn to wait for you :p Thank you baby for everything everything you have done for me through this 2years and let me name some examples :) 1) You helped me put wet towels on my forehead while I am having a fever. 2) You done up a big frame with pictures and handcrafts made by you which took alot of time. 3) You give me surprises by buying things which I really wanted and I remember you giving me a whole bag of stationery just before my "O" levels. I feel so touched by your little surprises and it always brighten my day even when I am feeling sad. There are many more things like making me smile when I am in a bad mood (making silly faces) and I am really grateful to have you with me through this time and I know we would be going a long way. You have brought alot of joy into my life :) Although we do have bad times together but we would always talk it out and eventually solve the problem. No matter what, I just want to tell you that my love for you has never change and it will never be :) Love you my dearest baby <3

Ken

2011-01-04T20:40:00.001+08:00

This year, I celebrated new year with my love ones. Can't really remember what I did for last year though but this year, it was really way better than the previous year. Meet up with my classmates at newton circle for dinner first. Damn, the food was good and it was actually my first time there. Suaku much. Then, we had ben and Jerry's my fav cookies and cream over at town and surprisingly, town was quite empty. Cheryl's bf and nat then came to join us and we head to marina bay for fireworks. While its still early, we head to ida's work place java detour to have some good stuff and head for fireworks which is just outside marina bay sands. While the time strike twelve, everyone was cheering, shouting and stuff, including us. After everything, while walking and squeezing our way to the train station, we said happy new year to everyone. Hopefully more of this outings to come :)

xoxo,
Jass.

2011-01-03T00:17:00.004+08:00

Looking through my 2009 and 2010 entries makes me feel that I've grown so much. Perhaps a little more mature I guess. It makes me feel that I've changed so much. In terms of appearance, thinking, practically everything. Well, time flies. I was pretty amazed at how 2010 can pass so quickly and 2011 is here already. Thinking back, how I used to look forward to my legal age eighteen but now, in a few months time, I'll be turning 19. Am not old any more. So here are my new year's resolutions for 2011.

My parents will be healthy always.
Study hard and excel in my studies.
Get at least a gpa 3.2 and promote to poly.
Be a better daughter, a better girlfriend.
Spend more time with my old friends.
Work hard and save more.
Quit all the bad habits.
Exercise, lose weight.
Learn something new.
Be more independent.
Eat more fruits, drink more water.
Being optimistic about the future.
Learning to appreciate things.
Don't take things for granted.
Donate to the poor more often.
Visit the temple more often.
And I hope everyone around me,
will always be happy and healthy.

What are yours? :)

xoxo,

Jass.

2011-01-02T16:30:00.003+08:00

Guess what.... I went clubbing on wednesday with nat baby, sarah, jovian, brandon and the others. If you noticed, being observant enough or a loyal blog reader of mine, it was actually my virgin experience to the club omggg. I was extremely excited cause I've never, never been to any club before. Been waiting and waiting for almost of all my friends to hit the legal age and yay finally, we can officially hit the club together now. Initially, we wanted to go powerhouse but the queue was frigging' long and it was so pack that we can't even go in that we end up at another club, movida. It was so fun, if you go with the right company but a pity it closed early. After which, we cab to another club then over to nat's house and stay over. My legs, shoulder and my whole body is aching all over. Slept at 7 plus in the morning. Overall, it was a very fruitful experience. Can't wait to club again heh.

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-12-30T17:30:00.000+08:00

Spent my christmas eve with ken. Went to watch little fockles at cwp and had thai express after which. It was a very simple date. Didn't really celebrate and hit down to squeeze with the others.

and after so long......., I still love you so, you will always be a part of me :')

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-12-27T13:39:00.001+08:00

Some overdue peektures from sarah's cam :) Thinking of some plans for new year celebration hmmmmm. I don't wanna spend my day at home.. so where do you guys often celebrate at? :)

xoxo,
Jass.

2010-12-24T22:57:00.004+08:00

Guess what, I finally created tumblr after so long.... muahaha and I'm so noob at it. Follow me at here Holidays, its finally here.. but I'm like practically returning back to school almost everyday just to finish up the project and apparently, its been four days already, we've yet to finish it. It doesn't seemed like a holiday to me and I've yet to enjoy. ok hmm, at least I get to sleep a few hours more and less tired as compared to school days. I wish holidays can be extended, coz' my I hate school. I hate waking up early in the morning. I hate going school. I hate all the projects, assignments and exams. My only motivation of going to school, is my friends. Well, I know I need to study hard and all, I need to have determination because I need to go poly. But when I'm always playing around, not serious at all and not putting in the effort, will I be able to see the results? Saying is always so much easier than doing. Sigh, actions always speak louder than words. At times, I feel really rlly scared. I kept asking myself what if, just what ifs... one day I can't enter p? I would be so soooo sad and even if I cried a thousand/million times, it would still be the same. I don't wanna have regrets again. This is my one and only last chance and no matter what, I need to get ways and means to get there T__T urghhhh ok I'm getting more and more pessimistic, I should stop here.

Head to town on wed and meet up with last year, TB mates. Glad that I went, miss all of them so much, especially sarah. She's always so cheerful, noisy and funny. One that I always enjoy being with :)

Merry Christmas!

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-12-20T19:56:00.006+08:00

Best friend ; what exactly does it define as?

It is someone that touches your heart, being sincere to each other, someone who will always be there for you no matter what happens, who share something in common with you, comfortable talking about anything and everything, who knows all your weaknesses but still find you completely amazing, could spend hours with them doing nothing and it can be the best time of your life, and I've found/met this particular person, cfyw. you're one that I can never afford to lose, one that I will never give up on, one that I will always hold on no matter what, one that I will always treasure and cherish, one that I can count on/rely on.

Despite the fact that, I've only known you for nine months, but it feels that we've known each other for years already. Its amazing how we became so close in such a short time and know each and other inside out. I feel blessed, to have you as my best friend. Thank you for always being there for me, thank you for always giving me advises, thank you for always cheering me up when my day wasn't good, thank you for being so thoughtful, thank you for always sacrificing, just for me, thank you for always being so understanding, thank you for loving me like no other, thank you for everything and everything that you've done. I really appreciated it. I doubt, I will meet another person like you who know me inside out, going through thick and thin with me and always hearing my lame jokes. Knowing you was just my luck. In short, you're just so awesome. Just words can't express out how much you meant to me. I love you, my dearest best friend.

xoxo,
Jass.

2010-12-18T23:44:00.002+08:00

omg my long waited holidays is finally here. omg omg omfg can you believe it? I've been waiting and waiting for so long. Oh well, come to think of it... it wasn't really a holiday for me. I still gotta return school from next monday - thurs to complete my project, power point presentation, and not forgetting the 800 wfb's report and lop test next semester. There's so many things to be done. I'm so gonna be stress when school reopen and this sucks man urghhhhhhh.

Anyway, I went to new water with classmates on thursday, followed by bbq at east coast park. It's been so long since we had some gathering. I had soo much fun with them. I even drank volka lol and my throat is extremely dry. Even until now, i'm not kidding, really. Nonetheless, it was really a great time spent with them. Awesome class bonding with class LC. However, ms lim's not gonna be our class advisor anymore. The whole class feel so upset about it, sigh. Cause she's been switched to take tourism classes. Can't do anything but just gotta accept the fact, and we planned a farewell party for her on friday. I was awake till early morning, just to make her the video. Glad that it turned out great, and she teared. Haven't been having enough sleep lately and today I can finally sleep till shiok without my alarm bombing me to wake up. Awaked, prepared and head down to st james, cause there was a flea there woooo. Bought so many things, even saw kaykay. Then head down to bugis again.

Its been soo long, so long since i felt so happy again, and its all because of you.

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-12-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hi!

my blog is rotting

is anyone still reading this blog?

i've no motivation to blog even though i wanted to

oh wellz, recently i've been quite busy

busy studying for my tpl every night

and its finally over omfg

i'm so relieved

hope i score at least a b

woot, three more days till my holidays

totally can't wait

i need a break

last sat and sun was busy working at nex with cher darling

our job scope is to distribute vouchers

it was fun muahaha

and the pay is really good weeoowee

hope to get this kind of job more often

oh yes its ken birthday today hehehe

let me wish you a happy birthday my love

you're finally legal

i just got home not long

was out with his family to celebrate his birthday

rmb i received a $100 shopping from 199 shop?

the parcel was here

and i received all these for free hehe

will blog again soon

there's school tomorrow urgh

bai bai

xoxo,
Jass.

2010-12-10T20:05:00.001+08:00

Trust is like paper. Once it's crumpled, it can't be perfect again.

I wanna see Jaslyn an so freaking bad
give her all the warmth i ever had
I wanna be beside her infront of a screen
eating popcorn and watching movie

Now every time I close my eyes
I see her smile shining bright (ohh yeah)
in every second through the night
oh I would like to meet this girl
the one with long hair

yeah I would to see this every day christmas,
depavali is on my wishlist.

By: D

2010-12-08T21:15:00.004+08:00

Realized most of my entries are always damn emo kind. I'm sorry but this is the only way that I can rant out my feelings. Not entirely how I feel but part of it. Problems after another. Problems never failed to come knocking on my door. I'm so sick and tired of everything. Not because I'm escaping, its because I'm tired of doing every single damn thing thats not being appreciate and instead its the other way round, tired of explaining, tired of thinking, tired of being emotional, tired to even tear. What have I done wrong. Its seems like, every single step that I'm taking, every thing that I've done, is a mistake. I'm so lost. Everything, everything you're dragging me in. I've no idea what I should do, or say. I just want some peace. I just need some peace.. One moment, you can stab me in my heart so deeply yet the next min, you can just treat it like nothing has happened. After all, I'm just a human. I have feelings too. If I am the one who causes all these to happen then, guide me. Tell me what I should do and what I shouldn't. Ahhhhhh why would all these problems even occur in the first place? 2010, wasn't really a good year to me. Well, I would say there's both good and bad. I've learnt a lot this year, be it friendship, relationship... practically everything. I've understand life more. Time flies, its december already. Another month, it will be a brand new year already. I can't believe 2010 is coming to an end already....

Last sunday was out to celebrate baby's nat 18th birthday with the flowers! Its been so long since I went town. I really had a great day with them. I miss them...

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-12-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

Had wfb exam this morning and guess what.... I was late whathehell. I was never really late for class but why today? Damn. Lucky I wasn't that late and able to finish it in time.

Just few mins ago, I switched on my lappy... and its like going to blackout kind. The screen has got some problem, even until now. I was so afraid. I've got a feeling my lappy's gonna spoil soon sigh I'm so upset about it. I'm thinking of getting a new one myself but I'm so broke now. How can I afford to get a new one at this point of time? I can't even save a single cent and recently, I've been thinking if I should get a part time job? Will I be able to manage? hmmmm. I'm not feeling well, am down with flu and have taken panadol already but apparently, it doesn't work for me? My nose is like tap water now urgh, shall blog again.

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-12-02T21:31:00.002+08:00

I'm bored.
I don't know what I should blog about
but I just feel like posting one entry for today
well, I've been working on my proj lately
today, I stayed in school with my group mates for our proj again
managed to done some portion only
cos we spent most of the time on fb, joking around and
we use seri's macbook to webcam
damn. its fun, cos theres like so many effects that makes our face look so damn funny
all of us were laughing like hell
I swear my stomach was damn pain at that point of time
somehow, I feel like getting a macbook
but thats totally like impossible now
hmmm guess what,
tmrw I'm having exam and yet I'm still here blogging away
I'm seeking death, like usual
two - three more weeks till my next holidays
urgh I can't wait srslyyy
ok I shall just dumb all the picts here, taken last sunday
oh btw serangoon has a new shopping mall, NEX
Its damn big and there's a lot of shops there
I will be going there again soon
byebye

xoxo,
Jass.

2010-11-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

This whole week in school seems pretty relaxing. School starts either at nine or ten pm. Unsure if I should be happy or sad. Am glad that I can sleep longer than as usual yet on the other hand, I feel that, I'm learning nothing in school. Friday seemed really meaningless to me recently. School dismissed early but I have no where to go, no plans no nothing, therefore I decided to stay in school till 4pm and I head home to prepare and go for my btt. Wasn't rlly confident cos I went alone and I don't have any motivation. I must admit, I am someone who needs motivation all the time. Oh well, in the end I got 43/50 urghhhhhhh. I just need that two more marks. How can I even fail btt.... and now, I've booked my next btt which is on next year jan which is damn frigging long. Time flies, its coming to an end of november alrdy. Christmas is approaching too. Did I ever mention how much I love christmas? The beautiful lightings everywhere, exchanging gifts with friends and etc. In a nutshell, I just love christmas :)

Picts taken ytd, I had astons at sbw shopping centre. Good food and reasonable price!!

School tmrw...... Monday blueesss :(

xoxo,
Jass.

2010-11-26T23:16:00.006+08:00

Htht session with my bestest friend during one of the school days. Quality time spent with them. Both baby nat and cher darling is my bestest friend. A best friend is the person that you can trust with anything and that are very close with. Best friend is the person who gets you. They understand who you are and what you are saying. The greatest distance cannot separate best friends. You will always feel a kinship with them, and be able to instantly continue the friendship even after not talking for many years and I believe, they're the ones. They're the ones that I can talk to, regardless of anything. The one that never fails to be there for me everytime, the one whom care for me, the one who love me with their heart and soul. The one that will standby me no matter what happens. And of course, I love them, I care for them too. They're apart of me now. They're the ones that will never leave my mind. I feel really rlly grateful and thankful, for having sucha awesome friend like them. Just words can't express out how much they meant to me. I love you, my bestest friend - cheryl darling and nat baby. wo ai ni men, hao ai ni men.

The good times ♥

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-11-23T21:45:00.001+08:00

I got a call from dad. Also, I got a first time text form him for the first time. I don't know if I should talk about this but I feel that, I rlly need a space. A space for me to rant out. I feel like crying upon receivng a first time text from dad. He say he misses us and wanted to see us but unsure when we will be able to meet and a lot more. Frankly speaking, I don't know if I should be happy or sad. This feeling, its just so hard to describe. So near, yet so far. When can we ever meet? Sometimes, its like you've got sooo much to say but its just that you've no idea where you should start from. I don't know who to share with, I don't know how to tell. In any case, will anyone be able to comprehend this kinda feeling? Perhaps, those who're in the same boat with me will know exactly how I feel. I feel like typing out a whole lot of how I'm feeling right now but.... its rlly hard to pen down all my personal thoughts here. A blink of an eye, its been 12 years alrdy.. 12 years, and I don't even know that its been sooo long. Or maybe I actually do, its just that I'm lying to myself, to make myself feel better. I've grown up alrdy and have overcome all these obtacles. However, the scar will always remain there. Whenever I thought of it, it still hurts. It just hurts. Yet on the other hand, all this years, I thank my mum for being so strong. I thank my mum for making all the right decisions in life. I thank my mum for everything that she'd done for us. I grateful that my mum has never once give up on us. I'm grateful for everything that she has done. The "thankful and the grateful" will just goes on and on.

Giving up doesn't mean your letting go, it means you've decided to accept what it wasn't meant to be.

-Jass.

Cherish'

2010-11-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

Everyday when I returned home, I saw my mum, younger bro, aunt and grandma. But where's my elder bro? He's at the army now. I miss his presence. I've mentioned this before, as a matter of fact, eventually every guy has to go through army. Again, I thought. Its always I thought and this time round, I thought I would be okay. I thought I would be fine.. until these feelings strike me. Yesterday night, I had a hard time sleeping. I feel so insecure without my bro at home. Everything's just so different. No idea why I would feel this way but each time I entered his room, it reminds me of how often I used to go into his room and chat with him. That's how random I am and we can chat about practically anything and everything. What about now.. each time I walk passed his room, there's no one, no sound, no nothing. Its just so empty. I miss him so much. He's one that I can confide my problems to, one that knows every lil thing about me and I know he will always be there for me because he's my brother. I trust him. I love him. I know its not like he's gone or something. He will still be back. I will get to see him in 10 days time but, this feeling..I just feel so uneasy. He just called back home. Apparently, he's not feeling well and reported sick in camp. I'm quite worried though. Wondering how tough the trainings can be like.. Though I don't show nor do I express out how I am feeling but deep inside, I actually miss you more than anything. Again and again, I always remind myself not to take things for granted. Always cherish the person around you because they might be gone when you least expected it. Always treasure your dearest ones, before they really depart this beautiful world, or even leave you forever.

Family - (Father and mother I love you) They're placed 1st in my heart. Relationship don't last. Friends come and go. Family is the only one, that will standby you no matter what happens.

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-11-19T23:30:00.000+08:00

Its friday. Usually I would get pretty excited when it comes to friday but now, it seemed so meaningless. I've got no plans or anything so I decided to go for netball training for the very first time. Actually there was a lot of times that I mentioned,I wanna go netball but in the end, I always back up. This time round, I went and so coincidence that there was a tournament. Initially, I was so scare so nervous cos I know nuts about netball? I don't even know the rules or anything but I just went for it and we've got 2nd place. Furthermore, there's medal given to us. Its like a "wow" to me. Hopefully this motivates me to go for netball training more often in the future.

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-11-17T15:19:00.003+08:00

I love hari raya haji.

1) Ph, means I dont have to attend school and I can sleep till shiok without alarm bombing me up this morning but well, I'm awake since 10 plus. I wanted to sleep longer but can't. No idea why. I tried to sleep longer but I ended up tossing around my bed using phone to access twitter/fb.

2)Because of this particular day, bro can return home for a day. He's finally back yesterday after enlisting for a week or more and this evening, he need to return back to tekong again and will be only back next saturday. The trainings that he'd inside is rlly tough. This is sad. No doubt, I will miss him.

3) Mum is at home. Only when there's ph or alternate sundays, mum don't need to work. I love it when mum's at home. Every little things that she'd done, makes me feel super contended. Just like this morning, she went to buy breakfast for us when we're still asleep and she prepared wonderful lunch for us. I know it might be nothing to some of you but all these little things, warm my heart. I feel loved.

Still thinking if I should trim my fringe or continue to let it grow... hmmm hmmmm. Some thing to share with you guys. Something that make me rlly shocked, rlly surprise and happy omg. Guess what... I've won $100 voucher from a blogshop by participating in some halloween voting contest some time back and there's only 5 lucky winners hehe. When I received a mail from them, I'm so speechless. This definitely made my day :)

Happy Hari raya haji all!

"You make my life so amazing and I don't know what else to repay you but to love you just as much as you love me"

xoxo,

Jass.

Double J outing II

2010-11-13T13:24:00.002+08:00

Went for my appt yesterday and... I was late again. Apparently, my dentist went for his lunch alrdy and I sat there alone, waited for almost one hr and finally I went in... for approx' thirty mins.

Afterwhich, headed to bugis and meet up with jovianjosiah, my one and only guy best friend. Rlly have an awesome day with him. We can chat about anything and everything. Its been so long since we met each other but our friendship is still as good as before. Can't wait to club with him and not forgetting my dearest flowers. I miss you guys.

I love you Jovvy-

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-11-10T20:41:00.000+08:00

Last weekend was well spent. Went to watch The social network on deepavali, attended serene's wedding followed by nan's open house deepavali on sunday. Ran 2.4km for napfa on monday. I swear I was persiring like hell. Tired like mad. 2.4km was a killer for me and luckily I passed. My body feel so sooo weak after running. I've got no strength at all. Perhaps is because I haven been running for so long. Muscle still aching now urghhhh. I hate school. I dread going to school lately. I head to school aimlessly everyday. I feel that, there isn't any particular thing for me to look forward in school. Everything just seemed so meaningless now. No motivation or anything. I just attend lessons for the sake of attending. Everything is just screwed up and not going my way. I hate this. Most of the time, I was either dreaming or sleeping in class..... sigh. No idea why I would feel this way. Well, maybe I know? I just hope this is a temporary feeling and hope it goes away soon......

Picts taken at serene's wedding!

Extremly happy to see lam qi ming!!!

"Sometimes it's better to be clueless about what's happening around you, than to know every bit of information that would silently kill you"

xoxo,

Jass

2010-11-04T23:05:00.002+08:00

What a long day in school yesterday. Feeling damn exhausted. I hate monday and wednesday cos I've got lessons all the way from 8am to 5pm which is a long long day. Mon I usually don't have the mood to attend school and wed is a day that we've got to bring four different module of books rofl. Ytd afternoon, I had my dental appt 5.45pm at ktph. I went for it after school dismissed and I was late by just 5-10 mins because I've got a hard time waiting for the shuttle bus. When I reached, waiting my name to be called, the nurse came up to me and told me the doctor has left.... srsly wtf. The previous time I went, I didn't had my braces tighten because of some issues and this time round, the doc left alrdy. So which means, I went there two friggin times without getting anything done. A wasted trip. Was so dissappointed and pissed urghhhh. Then again, I need to change my appt and its next friday 12.30pm because there was only this slot given for me. All were fully booked. So crap.

Went mac today with classmates during lunch. Had fillet o fish meal and guess what..... I actually got the singapore flyer one for one ticket. Initially I was like so happy.... its like I finally got something omg but after that I realized, it was pretty useless. Cos student price is only $10 and for that ticket, you have to pay $29.90 just to get another ticket..... oh wellz. Welcome to the long weekends. Its Deepavali tmrw muahaha but there's sve progress test on monday which kinda ruined my mood :-(

xoxo,
Jass.

2010-11-02T21:33:00.002+08:00

Family went overseas alrdy and this house is so empty and quiet. I'm left alone here in sg together with my elder bro. I rlly can't get used to it.. though my bro is still around but most of the time, he's not at home. I had my meals alone, everything alone. I'm so not used to it. I think I rely on them too much, as in.. their company. With them around, my house is always damn noisy.. especially my mum. For the past weeks, they've been preparing all their winter clothes, pack their luggage and everything. I can only watch them pack their luggage, hear them talking about japan and yet I can't go. Feel kind of sad. I can rlly see that my whole family is longing for that particular day to come. They were all so excited about it coz this time, the snow period came two months earlier and they will get to see and experience the real snow omg they are rlly damn lucky. I didn't send them to the airport cos it was too far from my house and I've got school the next day. When they left, I felt so sad. That feeling..... I don't knw how to describe it. It sucks. Though I know they're only going for one week and its not like they ain't coming but I just cried. I hope they will have a enjoyable and memorable trip and hopefully, they get something back for me. I miss my mum so sooo much. oh yeh that particular day, despite that it was a sunday and her flight is at night, she still headed to work. Like srsly, who does that. My mum is rlly damn hardcore. I salute her, rlly. I know this is random but I just wanna say, I love my mum. I rlly do. Though I don't express out my love towards her cos of the reason that I'm shy. Deep inside my heart, I actually love her, more than anyone.

School dismissed at 3pm tday and I went gym. I went gym omg I totally can't imagine myself to hit gym. I went tgt with cheryl and demi. Ran for 2.5km without stopping. Body aching all over now. After which, we headed to cck lepak and dinner together. It was good. Haven't do this with them for sucha long time. I shall try to make some time to go gym with them everyweek. I love them~

Timbre last friday! ;)

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-10-30T23:17:00.003+08:00

Miss me? So yeap, I'm back. Recently I've been thinking alot. When I say alot, I rlly meant a lot. Typed a whole lot of how I feel. Wondering if I should publish.. In the end, I still choose to save it in my drafts. Things happened, glad that everything is over now. Pray and hope that everything will be fine. Ya won't know how much all these things can bothered me urghhh. All this while, I'm grateful for one person, my dearest fav darling, cheryl yeung fong wen who's always there for me. Without her, I'm not sure if I'm able to pull through all this shit that's happening. School's been a bitch. Every morning I've got to drag myself outta bed cos I'm have class at 8am everyday except for friday rofl. How tiring can that be. On top of that, there's projects, role play and so many things to be done. Thus, I hardly have the time to blog even though I wanted very much to. I've been going out quite often too. Well.... tmrw, mum and family is going to japan for one week. Don't know if I should be happy or sad. I've got to handle everything independently at home like all the laundry, my three meals etc. And omg its like japan??!! Who don't want to go? Family enjoying at japan and I've got to go school.. ahhh crap.

Some overdue pictures taken with natalie baby and xinyi dearest at town ;)

xoxo,

Jass.

Town with baby

2010-10-22T22:06:00.001+08:00

Its been ages, since I last hang out individually with my baby. She's always so busy... and when she's free, I can't make it booo. So last sunday, we finally met up and I accompanied her to expo to see some num sales there but to our dissappointment, there was nothing much. After which, we decided to go town. Its always town, the same old place. Though the time spent together with each other is short, I still enjoyed myself.

I love you baby, you're one that I can never afford to lose.

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-10-18T22:28:00.004+08:00

I feel so depress. I really don't know what exactly I should do. I tried to pretend that Im okay. I tried to pretend that Im fine. In fact, Ive been hiding all these thoughts. Practically everything.. I've tried, but I simply can't take it anymore. I just feel like giving up. I thought that I'm strong. I thought Ill be able to overcome all these obstacles. I thought I just need time. I thought and I thought. But at the end of the day, I still cried. I realized I'm still weak, feeling so down right now. Im mentally and physically worn out. I might just collapse anytime. I feel so weak. Too many mixed emotions. I don't know where I should start from. I'm lost. Im lost in my own world. I just feel so uneasy, feel so bad. I don't know what's wrong with me. I feel so bad, so bad so bad. Or perhaps Im thinking too much? I doubt so. No one will be able to comprehend this feeling. Somehow, I just need someone to be there for me. I just need someone that I can trust. I just need someone that I can truly rely on. Someone that can give me a hug and tell me that everything will be alright no matter what happens. But who is that someone? Its just so difficult to find one. I have friends. Yes, plenty of them but who are the true ones? I need to know. I need to know who is true to me. Some things are better to be left unsaid but I need to rant. I need this space now. This is the only space that I can pour out all my feelings to. I just feel like crying and crying non-stop. I wanna scream out loud. I wish I can be the cheerful me like how I used to be last time. I wanna laugh, smile and joke around with my friends but I definitely dont deserve this because I am the cause of everything.

2010-10-17T22:08:00.002+08:00

Boohoo, can't imagine I went town for three consecutive days muahaha. Weekends always come so slow and passed in a blink of an eye urgh. Tomorrow's school again and I gotta wake up so early. Lesson start at 8am everyday except for friday grrrrR. I'm gonna be so tired...........

I hate school.

xoxo,

Jass.

2010-10-09T22:09:00.001+08:00

Was feeling rlly upset about my results. It seems like I still haven wake up...

k's sis bought victoria secret stuff back for me from her usa trip. Upon seeing all these stuff, I was so happy and excited at the same time but it just last for a while cos I am upset over my stupid results....

All these are my favourite, especially the pure seduction.

And this, a pair of guess earring. Thank you soooo muchhhhh. Thankyouuu-

Straight after the release of exams results. The next day, I went to have sakae. Wanna eat a lot a lot. Wanna vent my anger/sadness... This is me. Eating can make me happy or rather cheer me up a lil. Good food makes me happy....

I rlly got to work hard for the next sem. Can't afford to have this kind of sucky results. Its time I wake up.

xoxo,

Jass.

:(

2010-10-07T13:56:00.003+08:00

I didn't have a good sleep last night. Infact, I didn't have a good sleep these few days. I kept tossing around my bed. So, I was awake 6 plus this morning and I waited till 8am to check my results. It was shit, hell. I expected. I'm so screwed. I expected the outcome but still, I'm feeling upset. Fuck this, I'm utterly disappointed with myself. So everyone did well except for me. I feel damn depress seeing all getting 3 pointer and what about me? Wtf did I get...and why must people kept emphasizing on their result is very lousy and blah blah, when it is so much better than mine? I feel even worstttt. So you think your result sucks then I should just go die. Sigh, I'm sucha loser. Loser is meeeee. I frigging get less than 2.5!!! Why can't I get at least all B? C and B really rlly can make a big difference. Its does not matter whether you pass or fail that module. Its the grades that matters. Its A, B or C. How am I suppose to pull up my gpa the next sem? Its so difficult to pull up/maintain the gpa. Sigh, is this what I really want? Well... no point to curse and swear now. Results is out. I gotta accept it. It just means that I did not study enough. That's it. Therefore, you reap what you sow. Let this be a lesson learnt. I'm gonna buck up next time T__T

Jalan Raya

2010-09-25T20:16:00.002+08:00

Its saturday. I'm so bored right now omgz. Can't believe I'm spending my saturday at home urghhhhhh. I'm someone that needs to be busy. I can't stay at home and I can never do that cos there's nothing for me to do. I get bored easily. Went Jalan Raya with classmates on wednesday and its me with the baju kurong heh. Do I look werid? :p I'm broke now. Need a job now badly grrr.

Have been listening to my blog song over and over again - Every Breath

xoxo,

Jass.

USS, Yog appreciation event

2010-09-23T18:28:00.003+08:00

It was my second time to uss. Uss open from evening till night just for the yog volunteer heh heh. Though I've went there and seat all the rides before, I still have fun. As usual, I took lots of pictures. More on my facebook though. Recently I like to spam my blog filled with pictures :p

xoxo,
Jass.

Double J day out

2010-09-21T12:30:00.003+08:00

Meet up with Jovian on sunday. Impromptu day out. I never like to stay at home on saturday and thus I decided to ask my friends out unfortunately, most of them are not free and I made the right choice by ringing up jov! He's always so on and steady and he agreed to meet me. Though its only the two of us but we had so much fun. Seriously I must thank him for being so steady by coming out with me. At least I wont be staying at home on saturday night.

KOI, forever so many people queuing up hmphhhhh. While waiting for ours, we cam-whored! :p

I love you Jov! Thanks for being so awesome.

xoxo,

Jass.